After watching the latest episode of Nikita, The Life We’ve Chosen, I have a feeling the bond between Nikita and Alex is breaking. Amanda knew exactly how to plant the seed in Alex’s head ; Nikita’s goals are not her own and everything they do is Nikita’s win. Amanda didn’t even have to lay a finger on Alex, all she had to do whisper doubt into her ear. That along with Alex befriending another captive who daughter idolized Alexandra Udinov, and it was all she wrote.
This is so frustrating because Nikita didn’t force Alex to choose Division. Alex chose to stay to fight for something she too believe in. Sean is the one pulling Alex away because he fears for her and he doesn’t trust Division, and more specifically Nikita. I don’t think he ever did, he is just supporting Alex. As this story unfolds, I see Sean winning more ground in his quest to get Alex to walk away.
Last week, everything clicked for me regarding the Amanda and Nikita relationship. Amanda, in her own sick twisted way, loved Nikita. We almost got a glimpse into Amanda’s past but it is clear Amanda is broken hearted that Nikita changed and left the nest. I think deep down Nikita both loves and hates Amanda. Nikita is certainly a strange one, assassin with a heart of gold who fiercely loves her people. Unfortunately, she is headed for heart break with Alex and Ryan (Who is becoming more like Percy).
When you think that you have a secure and safe place to live, work and play, you don’t think twice about it; until tragedy strikes. I always thought because I went to the gym at work and there were monitored cameras and security on site 24 hours, I would be safe and if something happens there is a emergency protocol in place. Well to my horror, that is not always the case. I am even starting to question is it ever?
Sometimes I go to the gym late Saturday night to workout. I thought that was perfectly fine because I swipe my badge, key in my code and the door opens. In the background, my picture shows up on the computer to identify who I am, in addition, I walk past security. My husband was not concerned with me going alone because of the aforementioned “security checkpoints”. One incident shattered this safety bubbling we were living in. Last night, we both went to the gym, when I went to sign in I noticed someone’s personal items. Purse, laptop, binder, jacket, and gym shoes. I automatically assume she was in the restroom but thought it odd she would leave her purse in plain view. About a minute later me and my husband noticed a woman lying on the gym floor. We just stared for maybe 30 seconds and then he asked her was she alright. She was unresponsive. He asked her again, “Are you alright”, nothing. She did turn-over and wiped something from her mouth. Immediately we determined she was having a medical emergency. My husband went to go get some help from Security and I took a look at when she signed the roaster. I freaked, she signed in two hours before we arrived. When my husband came back with security I was taken aback because the guy just didn’t exhibit of a sense of urgency. He then said he saw her lying there and thought she was taking a nap. I thought, taking a nap on the nasty gym floor. The security guard asked her was she alright, no response. It was as if she couldn’t respond or couldn’t hear him. He left to call for help and we sat down to wait for police and the EMTs. It seemed like the longest night of my life as I watched her to make sure there was some sort of movement. Thankfully, help arrived in less than 20 minutes. The police come first so they immediately started asking questions and they also asked her was she ok. No response but she did roll over again.
The security officer seemed oblivious to what was happening so the police started looking to us for answers. I found her badge and freaked again because I recognized the name. Unfortunately we couldn’t find any emergency contact information for her. I had always assumed since that is part of our employment records security would have the information. Well, if they did, that security officer didn’t know how to get it. When the EMTS arrived, they had the same questions, and asked her was she ok, no response. The entire scene was horrifying and not knowing what was happening to her was simply terrifying to me, but what about her.
What really scares me is the fact she may have been lying there in her soiled clothes and on the soiled floor for over two hours. If she had a heart attack or stroke, time is of the essence. What is even more frightening is I am usually the only one who goes to the gym that late so What IF we skipped going to the gym that night. How long would she have suffered alone hoping for help. I don’t know what happened to her; I am going to have to find out later. What is shocking is sometimes I go to the gym alone and workout, how long would I have laid there until my husband looked for me. What is unsettling is I know for sure the security guy would have thought I was taking a nap.
Because of this incident, I will not be working out alone. I have changed the way my smart phone operates so that if I am in an emergency, I may be able to use my phone to get help. I have also started looking into easier ways to identify my emergency contact. I have to look at all aspects of my life to see where security and safety improvements can be made. Unfortunately in this day and age you cannot depend on any systems to keep you safe and secure, you have take your own precautions.
Week two was one of those weeks were results were different than what I expected. I should have stayed off the scale but I didn’t and every time I looked it said the same thing. I was starting to think the damn thing was broken but I had to remember my eating, while mostly healthy, could have been improved. I also failed to drink enough water so maybe that had something to do with it. Anyway, I didn’t fall, I just stumbled. Monday I was suppose to workout but I was too tired so I took that day as a rest day. I adjusted my goals on Sparkpeople to make sure my nutrition was in order. Sometimes it is hard to make the Nutrition goal without getting high fat. I really need to do more research in high calorie, lower fat foods. This will be a goal for next week.
My energy is steadily increasing and what I couldn’t do or got winded doing is now a piece of cake. My back doesn’t hurt when I go walking and that is such a wonderful thing. My feet still hurt so I had to get rid of some new shoes. I also have to stay away from the treadmill for a while, just until I get my weight down. I have to stick with the Elliptical, Life Touch, and the Bike. I might just pull out my bike this week but I have to check the weather.
I feel better and that is a good thing. I am starting to see some changes in my body which is nice. I am definitely within my goal to become a healthier me. I still have a long way to go with over 130 pounds to lose over the next year and half. I believe I am still off to a good start.
The following are the results from Week 2.
Week 2. Starting Sunday 3/10/13 to Saturday 3/16/13
1. Walk around the block everyday at lunch. If it rains, either climb the stairs or walk on the treadmill at the gym. Failed I rested Monday and Tuesday but I still made my calorie burn for the week.
2. Workout at the Gym Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Sat, and Sun. Include strength training on Friday and Sunday. Failed. I rested on Monday. I adjusted my goal accordingly.
3. Stay away from the scale! Failed.
4. Stay between 1830 – 2180 calories a day. Success.
5. Do not eat any junk food or drink any sodas, including diet soda. Failed. I had a brownie for lunch on Tuesday and Wednesday.
6. Add a fruit and veggie to every meal. Success.
7. Do not eat any red meat. Success.
8. Drink at least five glasses of water a day. Failed.
While it seems like I had more failures than successes, I feel great and my motivation is still good, so I am looking forward to a successful week three.
Week 3. Starting Sunday 3/17/13 to Saturday 3/23/13
1. Walk around the block everyday at lunch. If it rains, either climb the stairs or walk on the ride the bike at the gym.
2. Workout at the Gym Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Sat, and Sun. Include strength training on Friday and Sunday.
3. Stay away from the scale!
4. Stay between 1830 – 2180 calories a day. (Because of my planned fitness)
5. Do not eat any junk food or drink any sodas, including diet soda.
6. Add a fruit and veggie to every meal.
7. Do not eat any red meat.
8. Drink at least five glasses of water a day.
9. Do some research on high calorie, lower fat foods.
I had a great workout today. I burned 100 more calories than last Sunday in the same amount of time! Now that is progress.